Sunday, December 6, 2015

Introduction

The past five years of my life have been intense, for lack of a better word. My life was always fairly boring until I met this Girl X. This blog will be about her and how she has affected my life and what my life is now because of her. I am not one, not unlike many other men, to share my thoughts or feelings to others. But lately I have been feeling a little bit cut off from not just my family and society but also everything else around me, like my emotions. I still think about things in an emotional way but its hard for me to actually feel that specific emotion anymore and I think being with this girl has done that to me. I have never blogged before so I'm not quite sure what I am doing which is why I'm doing sort of and intro post.

The situations that I have been put in with Girl X have lead me to change greatly as a person. The amount of pain and suffering that I have endured has lead my brain to be in defense mode. The memories of everything that has happened are left fuzzy and vague. A long time ago I told myself that my life with her would make for a great book or Love Story "Novel" if you will. But every day my memories of the events that took place are rapidly slipping from my mind. This is another reason why I wanted to start a blog because I had never before tried to record these events.

Like I said, I am new to blogging so some of my posts may be sort of crude or confusing, for those of you who do come across it and follow me, I'm sorry for that. But besides that I think I will start from the beginning, from when I first came in contact with her and work my way chronologically telling the story of our Love, Hate, Sex and Pain.

I am and Engineering student so my grammar may be off every once in a while so please forgive and I may not be posting very frequently but I do want to get my story out there because I have never told anyone the entire story. I can't.

I don't know if anyone can message me or contact me in anyway, again, i have never blogged before so im not sure about any rules or what not. But if messaging or commenting is a regular thing I would love for people to do so. Thank you.